Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Some days are just plain hard

Like today...

Yes, getting a phone call is amazing. As I pick up the phone at work and say "Good afternoon, This is Colleen" I pray that I will hear "Hi Baby" on the other end because it makes my heart beat fast and I get butterflies in my stomach.

As much as I look forward to it, I forget how much it hurts when I hang up the phone. For the rest of the day all I am thinking is: Did i tell him I loved him enough? When will he call me again? And I am fighting back tears for the rest of the day.

Then I get to come home and deal with family and then wedding bullshit. This wedding is becoming more expensive that I have ever imagined. I know our parents are helping and we will be able to afford it with money to spare but I never spend money on ANYTHING so spending this much money in one sitting is making me sick to my stomach.

Needless to say,

I am READY for him to be home and help me plan this wedding!!!

But on a brighter note.... TOMORROW IS JUNE!!!! There goes a month, now is the rest could fly by that would be dandy, PLEASE&THANK YOU =)

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