Day three.. what can I say. It is as i expect it to be. Little communication. Only get a handful of texts during the day (if i'm lucky) and a 1-3 minute phone call at bedtime. Guess its a way to get use to no communication at all. So instead of waiting around for a text that I may not get I have been trying to keep busy. Yesterday, I went out to lunch with my best friend who came home from Cali (for now). I haven't seen him since July so it was soooo good to finally have SOMEONE. And today I continued with my scrapbook. I started it during the summer before I started working and figured I would pick it back up. I don't want to toot my own horn but I think it's coming out really good =)
Tuesday starts March, which I have mixed emotions about. It makes me closer to predeployment leave but the big bad D word comes after that. It feels like its coming on so fast when I have known about it for almost a year now. I remember when Kyle told me thinking "we still have forever". Well forever is closing in.
I guess it is a good thing that I started writing on this because it is a way for me to get all my feelings out. I dont like to talk to kyle about it because I have this feeling that I should be the strong one and show him that i'll be just fine when hes gone. But in reality i'm starting to freak out. It is hard not to know what the next year is going to bring. I also am not the type to dump my problems on other people. As a social worker, I have been taught to listen. Listen to everyones problems, struggles, and good times but I am never the one that just has someone listen to me. I would rather hold it all in until i find someway to deal with it.
Well this is my new way of dealing with it, hopefully it works. It has been thus far!
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