Thanks alot =(

Just a little reassurance from time to time would be nice. But do I get that? NOPE. I get "cut it out" and "stop".

I'm just so scared. I'm scared that hes gunna stop loving me, or hes gunna think he made a mistake or that he doesnt miss me. So normally I would just write my feelings here and look for reassurance from space but this ONE time I told him how I was feeling and I got "cut it out". I didnt even get an i love you.

So now I'm not gunna be able to sleep because i'm going to be over analyzing every word of our conversations.

But we will see how he responds to the email that I sent him. Hopefully I got my point across.

Is this stupid deployment over yet?

That sure came out of no where

Well needless to say I got a very surprising phone call yesterday. Kyle called and said that he no longer agrees with the reception venue. Alll because the caterer cost too much. Well we exchanged words and I cried a lot but still nothing got fixed. Hoped he would call today but nothing yet.

I guess its back to the drawing board to get more prices for caterers to try and convince him that this is where I want my wedding.

It never does end.

Planning this wedding without him is 20 million times harder than this deployment.